Monday, August 30, 2010

Goodbyes



Well as a remarkable day was 2day .. i thought of writing this post before i go on the queue to board on my flight back to Egypt .. this time is different because this time i'm going back for good ...
looking back at those past 5 years am really grateful for this experience ..they say one of the hardest thing in life is to find a true friend , i guess i was lucky enough to find many of them here
leaving 2day was certainly one of my most remarkable and emotional moments of my short life .. there was a flash back of memories when i was saying bye to every single person... after the 4th person i was starting crying which was really weird for me something i didnt expect but i couldnt help at the same time
anyway i want to thank all of u guys for all of this great time.. am sure this is the best memory i will ever have and u will always be the closest ppl to my heart . we have grown up together from kids to men sharing all of those great memories.... love u all

Sunday, August 22, 2010

Are we Humans???



The Universe...Our galaxy... The earth...Continents...Creatures. ..Animals...brains & souls......

I would like to describe a thought I had one day... i state that it's just a thought.. a thought could be right or wrong.. A thought is not a believe.. Although at a very deep level, You will find that it all make sense....

It was a fascinating island ... like so many here in Asia...people from all over the world love to spent their holidays there.. For so many reasons that am not going try to state... but the majority of them come here to enjoy some freedom.. a freedom from everything.. from the society rules that usually control their lives...a freedom from the demands that they always have to supply ... a freedom from the irritating routine they live in ...some have a freedom from their own minds... they don't need anything to bother them....The main rule here, is TO HAVE FUN..

One day i was too exhausted from the beach and I couldn't go out at night.. I preferred to stay at the hotel, but one of our friends was leaving that day. I had to go out with them as a mini farewell party. we went out for a club. That night, one of my friends didn't feel like dancing so he told me he is going to stay at the second floor; It’s closed and the music is not so loud there. He would just set and watch us from there. i thought i should accompany him. it sounded like a good idea. am so exhausted after all. We both went and sat there where u can watch the whole club easily.

When you are dancing or when you are inside the club. you are doing something. so you don't have the time or the need to observe and think. At that moment from the second floor. I did something new. i was watching everyone..it was like a show.. a real live movie...i found myself observing the people in the club and thinking…. It was very interesting actually to watch them…

I have never had this feeling before but i saw animals.. a real animals.. not in a cage or a zoo..but all over the place.. they were not making any difference from the animals we see in the wild life.. in fact ... they were just like any group or species of animals that live together because they can only communicate with each other.. i saw a male dancing his ass up so he can make a random female mate with him…. another female was seducing a male so he can bring her food...i saw a real fight between prostitutes over an old male because he can offer them money and a place to sleep...the older prostitute wanted to mark her territory so she slapped the younger one on her face, then they started a cat fight " ;) "... the younger one called for the bodyguards ( strong males work for food ) . they kicked the older prostitute outside coz she is no longer desired from other males... i found a male hitting on a female so much .. that he was literally hitting her.. other bunch of males were physically abusing other females....bottles of drinks were crashing on the floor ... some food were thrown every where... 2 males got into a fight for a pretty young female.. some of them were sleeping on the couches and the floor mixed with the thrown bottles and food.

The shock i had from what i saw that instant made me think for hours...Like to be honest there wasn’t a slight difference between humans and animals… yea with my eyes, i saw us people.. but with my heart i saw animals... just animals trying to fulfill their desires...Food .. sex.. ...pleasure....who are we??.. are we humans and they are animals???.. or we r just a species of animals that we call on ourselves humans???.. we thought we r the chosen ones ???but why??? is it because we built civilizations ???.... am sure who ever take a look on how the bees work.. or how the ants organized .. or how the whales send waves to communicate.. he wd think they r good to go...may be we r just like any other species on earth... and because we can communicate with each other ... we made theories that we are better.... may be dogs thinks they are better... or may be eagles feel sympathy for other creatures coz they can't fly.. including my species .. Humans??? ........................................

It crossed my mind the fact that one of the Arab’s presidents, thinks he is the king of all kings. He actually throw himself a big celebration celebrating this fact. He believed he is the king of all kings and leaders in Africa. The poor old man doesn’t know that everyone think he lost it. So what if some creatures are saying “ poor humans “ ???…… You can always assume what you want from your own prospective. But as long not all the players in the game accept that fact. Then you are just in a delusion.

20 minutes.... 20 minutes i couldn't see in those people one reason make me believe we r better.. i was almost convinced that from a bird's eye view, we are all just groups of animals inhibiting the earth....it made so much sense for me at that moment.. then i came into my senses... i realized the very basic fact that you all thinking now... they are DRUNK.... you can't judge the whole human race because a bunch of drunk people...I realized that I was totally out of my mind. I know by faith That human race is in charge.. we r better than animals.. we have a thinking mind that can make choices...we can make our own future... we are civilized and we can truly take control over all the other animals..but.....

but why did i feel we r animals.. why i was so shocked to see humans acting like that...it's just one simple conclusion...... humans without there awareness is just animals…what i saw... was the most clear vision to what people is going to be like without their control on there minds... they would be nothing but animals.. not better than dogs or snakes or a group of monkeys anywhere... why am saying that? .. Coz when u shut off your control.. you just follow your desires..no limits.. just desires... no right or wrong... only try to get what u want.. like when you throw a bone out of the window.. and the poor dog just jump behind it .... It's a dog.. u can't blame a dog for following his desires.

i would like to mention here one verse in al quran, god said :

( أم تحسب أن أكثرهم يسمعون أو يعقلون إن هم إلا كالأنعام بل هم أضل سبيلا )

"al forqan". The verse show that some people are like animals, but even worse. that they don't open their mind and think.

The drunk example was so clear because it's an extreme... people kill while they are drunk.. they just follow there desires of anger, happiness , sex , food..... they are drunk.. BUT WAIT A MINUTE ...what if it was just a life style.. to follow your desires and needs without control . As long as your body satisfied.. then you are satisfied. A mind set, do whatever you feel like , no boundaries, no limits. I totally believe that it’s ok to enjoy your life, and to have some pleasure, but don’t live for that. Don’t be so drunk while you are actually sober.

One of my favorite public speakers is Moez Masoad, he once gave an example in one of his speeches that I liked so much. I will restate it here and let you guys think about it. How many times you were asleep and you had to wake up for something important and you couldn’t. May be you are going for a presentation or may be to travel with your friends. And when someone try to wake u up, u just ask them for 5 more minutes. And then 5 more minutes, then please let me sleep. I dun wana gooooo…..alot of us keep snoozing there alarms and they miss a lot. but once you are awake, you regret so much what you missed. While if some one managed to wake you up, you actually become so gratefull. Sleeping is so nice, but you miss the real life.

You would be mistaken if you thought am writing this to show how bad alchoholic drinks are.. or drugs.. it's too basic for everyone... am writing this to remind myself and everyone to be human beings. To feel the need to control your desires. Of course am not in a position to judge people. Actually no one in such a position. It’s just a very healthy habit to observe the world. You will always come to your own conclusions.

Don’t be enslaved in your body needs. tht would just make you an animal..or may be even worse.. a drunk human being.

Sunday, August 15, 2010

a7san 7aga fe Malaysia



I have been thinking for a very long time on how to write this topic .. I feel obligated .. but what always hinders me, is that there is no words that can portray what I really want to say ….

Around four years ago, in my first year in Malaysia my friends and I decided to go to Thailand for our mid-semester vacation (spring break), first we went to Bangkok it was awesome .. then we went to phuket and the trip was getting better every day, awesome .. it was just perfect, and how not ?? .. you are travelling in one of the best spots in the world with some good friends.

In an unexpected turn of actions, I found myself in Bangkok phuket hospital, and in an expected behavior, I found that these “some Friends of mine” are becoming the Best of friends of mine.

Some people say that it takes a long time to make a friend, well it is true in the normal situations, and I have best friends whom I made in a lonnnnngg time .. and it is worth it hands down, but in the abnormal situations like these, the gestures these ppl did, makes you feel that those ppl you just met are your best friends already.

These situations may differ .. I mean you don’t have to go through an accident to know your best friends … some of my best friends were not there with me .. but I am dead sure that they would have done the same no doubt.

Since I came to study in Malaysia, around 5 years ago, I met so many ppl, some of them are friends and I really love them .. and on the other side there are my best friends, the kind of ppl that you can rely on them and be sure that they will help you with whatever .. and that they will care for you stuff as if it is theirs, With those ppl I have seen a lot … we went through a lot of things, although these 5 years are almost over but I will do everything I can to hold on those few forever isA ..

Saturday, August 14, 2010

Following your dream

few weeks ago i was reading "the alchemist " .. in my copy i had this introduction which was as fascinating as the book was .. i think this introduction summarizes the ideas in the book on how everyone should pursue their dreams....


we don’t all have the courage to confront our own dream.
Why?

There are four obstacles. First: we are told from childhood onwards that everything we want to do is impossible. We grow up with this idea, and as the years accumulate, so too do the layers of prejudice, fear and guilt. There comes a time when our personal calling is so deeply buried in our soul as to be invisible. But it’s still there.

If we have the courage to disinter dream, we are then faced by the second obstacle: love. We know what we want to do, but are afraid of hurting those around us by abandoning everything in order to pursue their dream. We do not realize that love is just a further impetus, not something that will prevent them going forwards. We do not realize that those who genuinely wish us well want us to be happy and are prepared to accompany us on that journey.

Once we have accepted that love is a stimulus, we come up against the third obstacle: fear of the defeats we will meet on the path. We who fight for our dream, suffer far more when it doesn’t work out, because we cannot fall back on the old excuse: “Oh, well, I didn’t really want it anyway.” We do want it and know that we have staked everything on it and that the path of the personal calling is no easier than any other path, except that our whole heart is in this journey. Then, we warriors of light must be prepared to have patience in difficult times and to know that the Universe is conspiring in our favor, even though we may not understand how.

I ask myself: are defeats necessary?

Well, necessary or not, they happen. When we first begin fighting for our dream, we have no experience and make many mistakes. The secret of life, though, is to fall seven times and to get up eight times.

So, why is it so important to live our personal calling if we are only going to suffer more than other people?

Because, once we have overcome the defeats – and we always do – we are filled by a greater sense of euphoria and confidence. In the silence of our hearts, we know that we are proving ourselves worthy of the miracle of life. Each day, each hour, is part of the good fight. We start to live with enthusiasm and pleasure. Intense, unexpected suffering passes more quickly than suffering that is apparently bearable; the latter goes on for years and, without our noticing, eats away at our soul, until, one day, we are no longer able to free ourselves from the bitterness and it stays with us for the rest of our lives.

Having disinterred our dream, having used the power of love to nurture it and spent many years living with the scars, we suddenly notice that what we always wanted is there, waiting for us, perhaps the very next day. Then comes the fourth obstacle: the fear of realizing the dream for which we fought all our lives.

Oscar Wilde said: ‘each man kills the thing he loves’. And it’s true. The mere possibility of getting what we want fills the soul of the ordinary person with guilt. We look around at all those who have failed to get what they want and feel that we do not deserve to get what we want either. We forget about all the obstacles we overcame, all the suffering we endured, all the things we had to give up in order to get this far. I have known a lot of people who, when their personal calling was within their grasp, went on to commit a series of stupid mistakes and never reached their goal – when it was only a step away.

This is the most dangerous of the obstacles because it has a kind of saintly aura about it: renouncing joy and conquest. But if you believe yourself worthy of the thing you fought so hard to get, then you become an instrument of God, you help the Soul of the World and you understand why you are here.